Dear Sharon,
First of all, I would like to thank Lord for giving me this kind of situation, a good chance, really.
The situation which haunt me for my entire youth.. really. And now it is gone! After I express the truth, I felt peaceful in my mind and heart. It was really great, very great. I realize that to give more than what I can is truly love, trust, and acceptance. Learning to love unselfishly is not an easy task. It runs counter to our self-centered nature. That is why we are given a lifetime to learn it. I would like to apologize that I hurt you in the first place for keep nagging you the same thing. I'm sorry..
This two day I have a lot of time actually, I have nothing to do but thinking precisely that what have I done, what have I over worry about, what have I overprotect about and what is need to be done by me.
Tonight I witness a couple were having a fight in front of my room. The fight was out of my mind. The guy were screaming at the woman, kicking, punching, cursing, and also spitting toward the woman. It was really crazy. What happen to this couple? And I think about why don't I just do the same thing to express the feeling of anger toward you. And my heart told me, "No, that wasn't a right action to be done, that was just temporarily and it is violence and the problem will just remain becoming more problematic. I learn that frankness is very important to each other. (Actually I know that quite long ago, but this time strengthen the spirit of being frankness.)
Thank you, dear.
You love me because you knew that I was able to change to a better person in my life.
You have faith in me because you know that I will be certainly be there for you no matter what except I am dead. (Even if I dead, IF there are choice for me to make with God, I will always pray for you, from there.)
You accept me because I am a imperfect person for you, I am totally a rubbish.
The greatest thing you gave me is Love.
Dear, I miss you so much even it is just merely a day without contacting you, and it is really driving me crazy enough. I am crazy.
Thank you, dear. I just realize that why I am still continue living this few years. It is the spirit that you gave me indirectly or without your mind that motivate me to continue my everyday life. You are the spirit of angel sent by God comfort me when I am lonely, I am helpless and mindless. You are the great listener who patiently hear my inner voice although it is using one's own spear to strike one's own shield for sometimes. You are the one who support me all the time. I realize that I should appreciate for what I have. You sacrifice your valuable time for me. You will be there to give me what I need. I realize that I do need you in my life, really. And I do realize that slowly I have change to become a better man. I really want to thank you, dear for being in my life. I love you, dear.
All glory and gratitude to you, Lord almighty.
Amen.
Truly by,
Yang²