Calm Envy

I seem to sink into the sound of the falling rain.
This promise is whose dream, who is this dream for?

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you. It's this way, isn't it?
When our hands are clutched together,

There is this unknown scent coming from the opposite one.
Although I can breathe normally,

I seem to crumble eventually.

If you could love me deeper than just those words

I could believe only you standing before me.

In the suddenly showing past, the times we would touch,

Could not fill the fragile emptiness, floating on those tears.

Although I find comfort in this peace,

You, who are beside me, are breaking from my inside.

The answer is drowning in a smile.

You don't love the everyday shadow, when it was lost.

We carry those bounds that I can't let disappear.

Even though I threw those words at you,

if you could love meI could believe only you, standing before me.

The suddenly shown past, hurts every time you touch me

I want to love you to my inner emptiness.

Because I won't let you notice how I wipe my tears

There is nothing else to laugh about in front of me.

It's not the two of us, concealing this means the...

How I wish it to be us together crying at this...

More than thinking back about it, I would like you to forget

And put me in this empty space.

Don't chase those long passed days.

Don't leave anything more than what's already left.

I hold onto this good bye, as I fall asleep

And the faint heat vanishes like tobacco.

The days that won't return, the person I loved